Hygiene Factors

It's a big week for me – our new fridge/freezer arrives on Saturday. It inconveniently broke the week of our wedding when about 30 of my family members descended on London. And despite writing on this blog at the time how easy it was to get the repairman to come in and fix it, now it just sits there dead and broken. And we are finally defeated; we are just coughing up money for a new one.

Turns out it had a faulty part. And all three subsequent replacement parts were faulty too. We both did a good bit of chatting on the phone to the retailer, me in an entitled American not-so-composed sort of way, the Hub in a rational English way with dulcet tones. He did his best to coax them into keeping us as 'life-time customers' if only they would just replace the bloody thing.

Eventually it seemed our only option was to get it written-off, but that seemed to take even more effort. When it came down to it, I couldn't bring myself to make onemore  single phone call about it or work from home for yet another morning to greet yet another repair man. (I learned a lot about the electrical goods retail industry: 1) they make a lot of money from selling you expensive guarantees and goods of dubious quality 2) they sub contract out the repair work, which is then sub contracted out again to local repair people, who never answer the phone.)

The one good thing that came of the whole palaver was that one of the repair men found the Hub's wedding ring, which we lost about two weeks post wedding. (It was mysteriously sitting on top of the fridge).

Refrigerators are something that you only truly appreciate when they are gone. And I believe this makes them, in management/business school speak, hygiene factors. A hygiene factor is something that doesn't motivate you, but causes angst when it is no longer available. Like hot showers. No one jumps out of bed, excited by the prospect of a hot shower (do they?). When people talk about whether or not they are happy they don't usually say, "Things are good – the showers are hot." But when someone's shower runs out of hot water, my guess is that you hear about it that day at work – probably in more detail than you care for.

Having an extra fridge is definitely a hygiene factor. I'm sure once we get our new one you won't be reading any more blogs about it – I probably won't opine about how it's great to have the room to freeze extra bagels and have lots of ice handy. Or how we will now be able to keep white wine and beer nice and cold for when guests pop in unexpectedly (which happens ALL the time)*.

Hygiene factors mystify me. Why can't we harness them more for our happiness levels? Why don't roomy fridges, hot showers and warm beds send us skipping down the road?

Why does the absence of something annoy us but its presence is taken for granted? I don't really have much of an answer here, but I think it's worth thinking about as generally there is much we take for granted.

As a generally grumpy morning person, when things are worse than usual, I do try to turn it around by thinking of what I've got to be thankful for on my walk to the train station. Sometimes it starts with a very grim "I least I have legs." But at least that's a start.

*For full disclosure here, the tiny fridge that came with the flat is an under-counter one and we also have a small dorm-sized freezer from our old flat. We have been surviving on these two boxy devices since March. I spend my days sitting on the floor to look in the fridge and trying to cram everything into the freezer without ruining our four frozen wedding cupcakes that we hope to eat on our first anniversary.
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Enough: Limits Can Be Expansive

I've always been a bit of a more-is-more addict. In high school, perhaps driven by the need to impress college admissions officers or just the enthusiastic, inquisitive part of my personality, there was always one more activity I wanted to do. The French club, the Environmental Club, Drama club, Chorus, Key Club. I was on the swim team, the soccer team and even tried track for a while (although thank goodness that didn't work out as my posture problems later in life feasibly could have been worse). It's good to try things: you make friends and get to know your likes and dislikes and hone in on what you're good at.

There's definitely an argument in life for pushing yourself and trying things. But when to say when? When is it time to decide that you are enough already?



When I think back on times in my life when I've been the happiest, it's when I've scaled back. I fought the urge to dive in head first when I joined my university's daily newspaper. I wanted to strike a balance at university that I didn't have in high school. So I sat it out my freshman year and then sophomore year I started devoting one day a week to writing a news story and eventually did one copy editing slot a week as well. But I knew I wasn't interested in becoming an editor.

I studied a lot at university, but I also knew that going out on the weekends with my friends, going to concerts and just hanging out in our dorm rooms was essential to having the whole experience. I remember thinking: I want to enjoy this time.

Any kind of limit on what you do, what you own or how much you work can seem just that – limiting. But paradoxically, I'm discovering that when I reduce my focus, I am actually able to grow on a personal level that is impossible when I'm stretched too thinly. Learning and understanding become deeper, more fulfilling and expansive. What's more, honing in on the things that you really love means that challenging yourself is more rewarding. Being content with who you are and what you are about gives you the freedom to say: I don't need this extra distraction.

There are so many things in life I enjoy and peak my interest. We'll be going to a wedding in Italy next year and I'd love to take a beginning Italian class so I can actually speak to people. But when I actually did some research on the time commitment involved I had to consider my priorities right now. There are (sadly) limitations on my time and energy. And I've done that sort of thing before – life drawing classes in New York, French lessons in London, and tap dancing in both cities. It's not as if I've lived a deprived cultural life.

These days I'm focusing on writing and activities I feel are essential – reading (as a necessary part of writing, I think), exercise that works my mind as well as my body and relationships that sustain me. I am done with thinking that the things I'm good at and enjoy aren't enough. Because having enough and being enough is a state of mind.

This post is part of the Self-Discovery Word by Word series started by Ashley at Nourishing the Soul. To find out more and learn how to get involved yourself, read Miss Mary Max's kick off post for September here.

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Back Soon...

It's been a long two weeks. Although I'm not a teacher or in a job that is officially dictated by the seasons, in Europe, after August, everyone comes back to work. Suddenly things are happening fast. Everyone wants everything now.

This dynamic has also meant that I have attended two industry conferences in the past two weeks, which has knocked the stuffing out of me. Hence the lack of blogging, or replying to emails. So apologies for the neglect and I will be back next week, hopefully with my regular schedule of posting twice. I've written the posts in my head already -- just need to type them up now!

In the meantime, I leave you with a link to my friend Donna's blog, where she not only described some sailing I did over the August bank holiday weekend (so you can see what I've been up to), but also made the important point that you don't have to love everything your partner does. Well said, Donna, and a good reminder to us all that we have to be true to ourselves.
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100 Butts

What is this post going to be about, you might wonder. Well, I have received one more exercise from my physio – perhaps the final exercise – and she calls it a 'bum' exercise, being English. I like to refer to it as a 'butt' exercise, since after living here for almost ten years I still feel silly saying 'bum'. I suppose one could sound more technical and call it a 'glute' exercise.

No matter what you call it, I have to be able to do 100 of them on both sides before I am allowed to swim again. Evil woman! It was a dirty, if effective tactic, to get me to actually do them before I start building in other activities again. I'm up to 50.

So the good news is before too long I should be swimming again, but the really good news is that all the MRIs on my spine and hips came back clear – no slipped disc or anything else. (If you're just joining this blog, the background on this particular story can be found here.)

And after doing about a gazillion hip stretches on the side where my back was hurting, the pain is almost completely gone. So we were being overly cautious with the scans, but at least I can rest assured that it was all residual muscle pain from either my fall down the stairs pre-wedding or the yoga injury made worse by jumping around on it, or maybe even just a lack of hip stretching. Whatever the reason, Super Physio has fixed it – or rather I have fixed it with exercises and stretches.

I don't want to speak too soon here, but for the first time in nearly six years – since I originally started work on my RSI and my more recent back injury from moving house a year ago – I feel really well in my body. And I just want to say, for anyone out there who is currently in pain and is putting in the hard physio work, it's worth it. Don't give up, because getting better is possible. I've had some really dark hours, lots of tears and lots of sweat. It's not just been a mechanical muscle problem, but a work problem (a too-stressful job) and a health problem (chronic sore throat that ended in a tonsillectomy) that also had to be tackled. And it took a long time – but I did it.

Who knows what the future holds for my body. You can't control everything – accidents do happen and age plays a part too. But for now, in this moment, things are good and I'm going to bask in it, at least for a little while.

And only 50 more butts to go.

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Routines

What is it about routines? Why is it that even something nice like a bank holiday on a Monday throwing off my routine can make me feel a little icky, a little unsettled?

In my early 20s I discovered that I was having panic attacks. I wasn't sure what to call them and didn't even know that they had a name, in fact. The only 'mind problem' I was aware of was depression. But I didn't feel sad. I was just having moments of sheer utter panic for no apparent reason. Sometimes it would happen late at night while I was awake lying in bed, or on the subway going to my art class downtown. I knew something wasn't right, and looking back I even remembered having some attacks when I was very young.

Eventually I did something about it. I went to see a psychologist and had sessions with her for about two years. I learned what a panic attack was, that they were actually very common, and she taught me some techniques for dealing with them. Doing some therapy was a great experience actually. I think everyone should do it at some point in their life – it's like taking a continuing education course – on yourself. As long as you are ready to work, because facing your own demons ain't always pretty.

I truly believe that people's general anxiety levels are set pretty early on. And I am a worrier. Give me a spare moment and I will come up with something to worry about. My parents used to call this my 'overactive imagination', like it was something good or at least interesting. But when you draw pictures age five of giant blue monsters that tower over the end of your bed, I do wonder.

As I talked about in my post Baby 19, there is some scientific evidence out there to back up my anecdotal evidence (my own observation of myself) that we don't have much control over our anxiety levels.

But what we do have is control over is how we cope with our anxiety.

I was given a great cognitive behavioural technique (CBT) by my therapist back in the day that helps if I do find myself having panic attacks. But I find these days I don't need it so much as I've developed other coping mechanisms. In fact, I don't have many panic attacks anymore.

One of the most helpful things is just knowing my triggers. Holidays (sad, but true), routines being broken, extreme work stress (particularly working late at night), lack of exercise, too much time alone, not enough time alone (ironically) and abundant amounts of drinking. Alcohol may soothe the anxiety short-term but a build up of cocktails – no matter how nice that cosmopolitan tastes – isn't helpful.

Exercise helps, especially taking long walks and yoga. Writing helps too. Having a place where I can fully discuss things that emerge from my 'overactive imagination' (such as Shrapnelphobia) is a Godsend (so thank you, MB&S readers, for listening). But mostly, knowing that my anxiety is normal for me and will happen at certain times, allows me to just hang on and live through it. I know it doesn't feel particularly nice, but I know it won't kill me and that it will pass eventually.

I don't know, I think I'm not alone in suffering from anxiety – the world can be a pretty sad and scary place sometimes. And people do seem to love their routines, and things I feel are helpful too, like exercise or meditation. We all need our coping mechanisms. Do you suffer from any kind of anxiety? How do you cope?

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